Sunday, January 9, 2011
the D word
I am not sure why it happens but i know for me, when i was a leader in ministry, there was and sadly still is a huge stigma around depression ...its like as if humans are super humans .......I have never in my entire life had depression, so when she walked in to my life it was a shock.
I had tried to deny it for about 2 years, masking it with Scripture and a smiley face ..but depression cant remain hidden, she has a way of finding a gap in our plastic facades and pulling us down ...
I remember not really thinking i had it, but from being a clean freak to then noticing that my dishes had been piling as had my laundry ...its the little things that started to make me think....
i had been invaded, i was no longer me
I gained 20 kilos and really found it hard to go out
I took 3 mths off from pastoring, but nothing seemed to help me, I never would say the D world ..
I would always just put it down to tiredness.