Wednesday, May 16, 2012
She said that I was going to write words from our Fathers heart, which would first prophesy to me than to others …
well I want to confirm that it is coming to pass, This season in my life is one of heartache some days confusion and complete utter brokenness a season that I know God will and is going to rebuild restore and take back to full wholeness in him a season to be refreshed, restored and refueled …..so I can fire back on all cylinders
However leading up to this season things around me started to crumble,my family started to disintegrate before my eyes …..i would cry ,I would yell ,and then ,one week end I just lost it ,I fell apart, if only I had stopped trying to keep it all together …agggrrrhhh and here is me writing a book called Feminine yet Fearless © and a Women's guide to Nakedness© when really I wanted to call it being (feral and frightened )ha-ha and (a women's guide to pulling the covers over my head and running away) haha
So I am really seeking God in helping me to use my experiences, raw and real and see women in churches set free, in our communities, cities,nation and world,enabling them to breathe but of course it starts with me agggrrhh don’t ya hate that !!!!!!!!!!!!!
So I am sitting in the car and I got I picture of a beautiful vase it was as if was watching a video I looked at this vase and it was chipped it was being moved around a room and kept getting chipped and I saw a women running around with glue fixing all the chips,the vase no longer looked attractive it had more cracks in it than a pavement, and it no longer looked like it was originally suppose to look
Then I saw a man he picked up the vase and smashed it …..then he took the women to a chair and he started from make a new one …….it was even better than the latter
I felt God say that that truly it is his desire for us …..he no longer wants us to cover up all the chips every time we get hurt or knocked about hoping no one sees ,or can even tell,believing as long as it looks good that’s all that should matter, well eventually the cracks will show …..
He wants us to be completely broken,so that he can make us new, molding us to His way.
Some of us treat our lives like great grandmas antique vase ,the thought of losing it to get a better one is the most absurd thing we have ever heard…… so at all cost we try to keep it together ,when it’s really falling apart
Girls I don’t know where you’re at …maybe it’s just me …..but I doubt it ……..
But I believe God calling us to a place of honesty before him and others ,a place where there is nothing left , but Him ….a place where HE is the only one to fill us …
Girls we have an amazing destiny …our promise land could be as close as our next breath …but we will never make it unless we smash our old ways, and become broken in the potter’s hands
Oouch its not painless but the results are breathtaking……………………..
Love you all debs xx